“Somewhere out in the darkness the phoenix was singing in a way Harry had never heard before; a stricken lament of terrible beauty. […] Harry felt, as he had felt about the Phoenix song before, that the music was inside him, not without … How long they stood there, listening, he did not know, nor why it seemed to ease their pain a little to listen… […] They all fell silent. Fawkes’s lament was still echoing over the dark grounds outside.” —J.K. Rowling.
In the sixth book of the Harry Potter Series, “The Half-Blood Prince,” there is a scene in which Harry’s mentor and guardian Albus Dumbledore dies at the hand of Severus Snape. It is a moving and powerful scene for many reasons critical to the arc of the story including Dumbledore’s magical Phoenix, Fawkes, crying a haunting lament at the death of the great wizard. Such a painful moment in Harry’s life needed the healing balm of Fawkes’ music. Harry had suffered so much loss, and now with the death of his mentor and friend, he wondered how he could go.
Often a song or a melody can act as a key to unlock a memory or a moment in the grieving person allowing the life of a deceased loved one to flood back into consciousness in a unique way. In a recent workshop on the healing nature of music the facilitator played a song requested by one of the grieving participants, a young woman whose father had died as a patient on our hospice program. The daughter shared that she had not been ready “till that moment” to truly feel the enormity of the absence of her dad. The melody and lyrics took the grieving daughter to a place, which, before that moment, was locked away. She left the session that evening more capable to engage the hard work of grief, knowing at a deeper level that healing could be possible.
At our annual Hospice Memorial Service family members join with hospice staff and volunteers to honor and remember the lives of our deceased patients in a service of readings, reflections and music. Music provides a pivotal component of the healing energy of that service. This year young musicians from The Juilliard School, Vocalists from The City Bar Chorus, and The female a cappella Threshold Choir will present a variety of vocal and instrumental selections which promise to bring a profound element of healing ingredient to those attending the service.
I encourage you to connect with music that can offer you solace and bring you to a place of healing and remembrance. The following suggestions from psychologist and hospice music therapist Paula Marie Jones can provide a starting place to use music in your journey of grief.
Listen to Music and Journal
Sit in a private space. Play the music that will help you feel your emotions and write about your feelings. Let it flow from you naturally and uncensored. If you want to take these writings and create a more refined form such as poetry, you can always edit later. The primary purpose of free-form writing is to release the intensity of your emotions from your body. You may choose to take these writings and destroy them since they have served the purpose of release. You may also consider writing a letter to express how you are feeling and what’s happening in your world.
Listen to Music to Connect to Your Loved One
Sit in a private space. Play the music that will help you feel connected to your loved one and have a “conversation” with them. “Talk” to them through your imagination or mind or just talk to them out loud. Once you have finished talking, be quiet and listen.
Listen to Music at the Grave site, Seashore or Place of Remembering
Go to the grave site, seashore, place of remembering or any inspiring location of your choice. Bring a blanket or chair and plan to stay for a while. Play the music that will help you feel connected to your loved one. You might have a “conversation” with them… maybe talk to them through your imagination/mind or even talk to them out loud. Talk to them through your writings. Once you have finished talking, be quiet and listen.
Listen to Music for Meditation or for Respite to Heal Your Body
Sit in a private space and close your eyes. Play the music that will help you imagine a nurturing, quiet place that calms your emotions and nervous system. Allow the music to soothe your mind and heart. Perhaps you might connect with your own personal Spiritual tradition.
Listen to Music for Gratitude and Celebration
Play the music that will help you create a healthy connection and remembrance of your loved one. Reflect on your memories about them and the ways you know them now. Celebrate and honor their presence in your life with gratitude.